There's always a smile on face but inside heart nobody knows

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

I'm Ariff

Life is crazy ..., u bad mood, u mad, u hate people, u missed them. N u cry.... Sometime u alone.... Lonely. The only thing u want is attention. Yeah I need that from someone. I'm not close with my family, even I'm not sharing most part of my life with my family to compare my close friend. But when a close friend ignore me.. It's a bit rough n I'm really sad. I know I'm not kids anymore... But having an attention it's good for everyone.

Monday, May 13, 2013


I wanna died

I know in islam we believe with qada n qadar. N it's not good we asking Allah for died. As human sometime I'm frustrated with my life. Not because I'm want be rich or nice life but sometime I felt empty for my life.

Look at people have partner , lover, money, meet anyone they want, good life  n of course I will hope can get same thing.

For a year I tried make myself happy, busy, Cheerup but until now I'm lost.

Then I start pray, doa to my god... Sometime I'm cried in front of Him... I'm shy to tell him what I want n always argue him.

Finally I just asking him... I wish I'm died early n don't want continue life like is complicated but a close friend never try to understand me. What else I can do? 

Someone say u must make urself happy 1st.... Then someone come to u. When I'm happy why not u take me as ur partner? Or u just bullshit me!!!

We are different.... Really sad when I think nobody cares about me. 

That's life

Sometime when someone we trust, we believe , we loved, we admirer, missed n they ignore us.... It's better not hav any connection anymore. Just broke my heart.