There's always a smile on face but inside heart nobody knows

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Another frustration

Try to think positive from time to time. But the truth is I'm keep frustrated. I don't know what should I do.... Leaving this life or forget everything. It's too much. So sad.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012


From time to time I felt nothing in my souls. Empty n sometime I can say too desperate.

I should not write this but I don't want keep it in my heart which is harm me from time to time.

It's like game u lost n wins. I always lost n failed .im ready with full package nice, strong, educated, creative, hardworking , sensitive, good looking but until now I'm failed for myself.

It's is my fault? When I start to know people n suddenly it's lost like that. Why not give a try or chance. For my part if I'm too stress or busy I need go out meet friend for a short to refresh myself n continue work. But sometime people just say no for everything . Why?

People like this people like that n I'm lost with people reject me. I'm not lkg for relationship if u scared in fall in love with u or others. The prblm is u never give a try.

I just normal guy too need fun n friend. I tried many way n hard for me to find someone hav good chemistry in term of talking, mindset n etc. hope it's with it for me. I don't care if u rich , beautiful or muscle . I don't care as long as u know how to take care yourself.

Pls god give me chance for happiness. I want happy to continue life like others people. I'm too lonely for myself. Begging with human just waste my time but i really begging pls n pls help me. Give a good friend. Which is make me happy n smile beside me. I can't wait anymore .... I'm tired. Pls listen to me

Monday, May 28, 2012

down lately

since a month ago....i think i lost a lot of weight......some reason actually......i was depress with life, work, about moving house. the most thing is i'm so lonely here. hard to much i need friend or someone i like near me.

sometime i cry because i cant hold this anymore.....i want someone near me to cheer me...... talk to me.....i dont know with who i should share because at the end..they just listen...not helping .

i'm sad with this life.....

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

tired at weekend but happy with niece n nephew's attitude

all of them very good in front of cam!!!!... make me smile non stop....their pose better than me. hahaha

remembered my time when i was kids!!!...

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Love n forget

Loving someone for those person we like its hard to do

Same thing to forget someone we loved.

But I don't understand why u don't want talk to me anymore. U not remember our good time together? The time u loved once me b4.

I'm here alone n lonely. I tried n tried to meet any but my heart not here. . My life is miserable without u.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

It's killing me slowly

I can say my life start full of frustration n give up. Although I tried move one step further or one step behind from this at the end I came at the same point.

I'm scared I will destroy myself. I'm really frustration with people around me. Why? Why ? Why?

Help me .... Come closer n talk with me. I'm hopeless now.

Saturday, May 5, 2012


another frustrated time for me...... don't know how i can say here....maybe some people just laughing and smiling. but for me i think i felt broken heart......hopeless....did i do something wrong?
but why?

give up....