There's always a smile on face but inside heart nobody knows

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

a long way to fraser hill






my soul at bkk..but body still here...sawadikap


miss bkk...the people,culture,city, food and of course the crazy thing there.

Monday, June 27, 2011

abandon housing project on the way to fraser hill


miss u friend......








Saturday, June 25, 2011

just a worst day

bored at home for nothing..... i hate this feeling....even feel terrible n worst.

fuck!!!! celcom broadband malaysia

i dont care how rude i'm with celcom... i hate it because the internet coverage are really bad. when i'm asking the promoter..they said...its like phone when u get signal..its means u get fully coverage.. of course u its right or logic...u can get phone signal everywhere.. but why the internet so bad? so what? my internet broadband never ever get full coverage....what the fuck? i pay monthly for nothing..dont promise to customer if u not sure ur product its good. i hate it because i need an hour and hour and hour juct to connect n disconnect to make sure i can read the message n reply the message. waste time.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

fed up n give up

sometime its hard to think about life.....i always give up n fed up until i feel so useless. i think when i fed up...its mean i'm in stress..when i'm stress i got high blood pressure....then i get sick......i just need what i need thats all. why is so hard and difficult for me...... to share with others is also hard because i dont want hurt anyone with my word. i just give up....... i hate this way..what i choose.....fake n nothing..who care?

Friday, June 24, 2011

the moment when i'm loving you

Mengapa kau pergi
Mengapa kau pergi
Di saat aku mulai mencintaimu
Berharap engkau jadi kekasih hatiku
Malah kau pergi jauh dari hidupku

Menyendiri lagi
Menyendiri lagi
Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi
Tak pernah ada yang menghiasi hariku
Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku

Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencintai dirimu
Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencinta

Menyendiri lagi
Menyendiri lagi
Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi
Tak pernah ada yang menghiasi hariku
Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku

Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencintai dirimu
Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencinta

Semoga engkau kan mengerti
Tentang perasaan ini
Maaf ku telah terbuai
Akan indahnya cinta
Maaf sungguh ku tak bisa
Untuk kembali padamu
Maaf ku telah terbuai
Akan indahnya cinta

Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencintai dirimu
Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencinta

Aku inginkan diri mu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencinta

Sunday, June 19, 2011

a short trip at singapore

this weekend..i was plan to go bkk...but the change was plan then suddenly my office make a short trip to singapore. its was nice, happening but really tired because walked too much. went to URA centre, singapore.

at URA centre, i met my lecturer, Megat. so miracle because we never meet at kuala lumpur for long time ago but we met at singapore. the world is so small. he was in trip with his student...i mean my ex university...for measured drawing n indutrial training at singapore. then its was funny n nice moment with him. he always critic my design when i study at architecture school. thanks Megat.

then my officemate n me went to esplanade, marina sand and finally at orchard road. we hav good time at marina sand..wow so amazing...we arrived late...i prefer with nice sky..i'm sure its would be nice.

arrived at hotel around 1030pm, i supposed meet my 2 friend at singapore...a bit confuse which one i should meet. finally i meet my old friend at beencolen square...he is my old friend since 4 year ago. have good talk...chit chat and i'm felt great sharing my life's story with him. was nice.....then i decided to go hotel..need to sleep...but really Can't sleep!!!!!

so thats why i'm at cyber cafe...download the photo from my camera..look marvelous...a bit bored...looking for fun but seems hard.....hahhaha anyway..i know myself...always not easy for many thing. crazy!!!!!..anyway will off to sleep soon.

Friday, June 17, 2011

just a memory


i just like this photo..i took from somewhere......so cute n young....even the hair style is good....sexy!!!!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

drama queen

the title a bit hot n gossip... sometime always drama happened in our life.i dont know what to say. b4 i sleep, i just wanna write something shocked me and forget everything.

for a few month i was thinking about a invitation of my friend about travel to somewhere together. old friend since 4 year ago, maybe 5 years ago. i met regular at kuala lumpur, hard to decide because think about work, leave, discuss with boss and finally i decided.

after i make decision.... my friend mention about something shocked me. since i know my friebd for long time ago..i never asking personal matter because i really think just friend. suddenly when i get an email about partner, have lover, not into relationship n bla bla.... i felt bad because i never think about that. i decided to join the trip just because to not reject the invitation, thats all.

after i got that email...i really not interested anymore. i felt so cheap, even useless., worst, the 3rd person in relationship. arghhhh always like that. if i really special..where is my position?

one thing make me felt worst is..... most people i met for a few year already got bf,lover partner n i'm sure shange many time, even better life, but me? people just come n go, miss u mis u, u r special..but no one understand me HERE!!!!!i felt fed up of the life.

i dont mind if someone be honest at beginning of friendship at least i know, i alert, i keep the distance, barrier, even etc. i respect everyone n always try to not meet someone attached because sometime i felt bad tooo.so sad.

anyway i have integrity, feeling,sensitivity, even i try make people happy with me...always nice to everyone. but pls don't broke my heart...thats all.

Monday, June 13, 2011

found nice poem I'm your man

You can be a million miles away from me
You can be kissin' another man's lips
But I'm you man, I'm your man

If tomorrow would stay behind
And I close my eyes and I never wake up
I'm still your man
I'm your man

I pray to God, I pray for time
I pray I can hold you in my arms
Pray with me eternally
Time is forever ours

It's the way that you smile
It's the way that you cry
Why I always want to be your man
It's the way that I feel,
When I feel you inside
Why I always want to be your man

You can be a million miles away from me
You can be kissin' another man's lips
But I'm your man, I'm your man

They can take away my heart and my soul
They can even tell me you don't love me no more
But I'm your man, I'm your man

I won't give up, I won't let you down
I promise to always stand by your side
Pray for faith, pray for you
Pray that we'll always be

It's the way that you smile
It's the way that you cry
Why I always want to be your man
It's the way that I feel,
When I feel you inside
Why I always want to be your man

It's the way your weak
The way that you're strong
Why I always want to be your man
It's the way you believe
And the love that you give
Why I always want to be your man

I pray to God, I pray for time
I pray I can hold you in my arms
Pray with me eternally
Time is forever ours

It's the way that you smile
It's The way that you cry
Why I always want to be your man
It's the way that I feel,
When I feel you inside
Why I always want to be your man

It's the way your weak
The way that you're strong
Why I always want to be your man
It's the way you believe
And the love that you give
Why I always want to be your man

in french.......

Tu peux bien être à des millions de kilomètres de moi
Tu peux bien embrasser les lèvres d'un autre
Mais je suis ton homme, je suis ton homme

Si demain restait derrière
Et que je fermais les yeux et ne me réveillais pas
Je suis quand même ton homme
Je suis ton homme

Je prie Dieu, je prie pour du temps
Je prie pour pouvoir te tenir dans mes bras
Prie éternellement avec moi
Le temps est à nous à jamais

C'est ta façon de sourire
C'est ta façon de pleurer
La raison pour laquelle je veux toujours être ton homme
C'est comment je me sens
Quand je te sens à l'intérieur
La raison pour laquelle je veux toujours être ton homme

Tu peux bien être à des millions de kilomètres de moi
Tu peux bien embrasser les lèvres d'un autre
Mais je suis ton homme, je suis ton homme

Tu peux emporter mon coeur et mon âme
Ils peuvent même me dire que tu ne m'aimes plus
Mais je suis ton homme, je suis ton homme

Je n'abandonnerai pas, je ne te laissera pas tomber
Je promets d'être toujours à tes côtés
Prie pour la foi, prie pour toi
Prie pour que nous soyons toujours

C'est ta façon de sourire
C'est ta façon de pleurer
La raison pour laquelle je veux toujours être ton homme
C'est comment je me sens
Quand je te sens à l'intérieur
La raison pour laquelle je veux toujours être ton homme

C'est ta façon d'être faible
Ta façon d'être forte
La raison pour laquelle je veux être ton homme
C'est ta façon de croire
Et l'amour que tu donnes
La raison pour laquelle je veux être ton homme

Je prie Dieu, je prie pour du temps
Je prie pour pouvoir te tenir dans mes bras
Prie éternellement avec moi
Le temps est à nous à jamais

C'est ta façon de sourire
C'est ta façon de pleurer
La raison pour laquelle je veux toujours être ton homme
C'est comment je me sens
Quand je te sens à l'intérieur
La raison pour laquelle je veux toujours être ton homme

C'est ta façon d'être faible
Ta façon d'être forte
La raison pour laquelle je veux être ton homme
C'est ta façon de croire
Et l'amour que tu donnes
La raison pour laquelle je veux être ton homme

Sunday, June 12, 2011

hmmmm iphone4

hahha stop at cyber cafe b4 take the bus to kl......just checking email n some website. internet at home got prblm. anyway still dream with iphone4..dont know why...just like gadget now...maybe its look nice n practical....maybe one day at future...many commitment now, work n personal life....

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

chris n me at broga hill










last weekend, its was unplanned trip to broga hill. chris was waiting his friend to visit malaysia n i also waiting for my iphone4 n another date. so at the end.... his date was canceled n my date also no news...so we just go out early morning around 630am to climb broga hill. so he is my new friend for outdoor activity now. i can say its crazy, extreme , n challenging me...to compare bukit larut last time. i was vomit at broga hill because not feeling well...lucky the photo was good n i'm look better...the real is i just try enjoyed it.

anyway was good memory there, fresh air, sweating n of course nice photo. pity chris will leave malaysia , this end of june. creating many memory by photo although just know him nearly 2 month anyway always happy with good friend.which is crazy, happening, easy n of course taking nice photo. maybe i can work as tourist guide soon. hahaha....

recovery


yeay thats only what i can write here. after a few day with not good condition now i think i felt better. was little fever, vomit and stomach aid for few days. feel healthy n will hit the gym n exercise soon. in few days weak n bad feeling, many thing play in my mind...... bad mood, mad, jealous, give up, frustrated and etc.

from day to day...i try to forget it or try to not think too much......but when u depress everything come at one point. at same time everyone in my team take holiday..so i run by myself for all work. felt bad what no choice. i know past is past, just move forward for better life n better day.

8 reason why i really down........

1. my 3d building changed again by boss
2. my trip to bkk need to find another time
3. i'm canceled my trip to hometown
4. iphone 4 just history
5. hate waiting and the date was no news
6. my trip to singapore was reschedule without inform me
7. missing someone
8. not feeling well

anyway past is past...... maybe some people just think easily but for me i think seriously and maybe twice n triple time. again past to past.... hahha wana forget it all. many thing to do at future. re planning the life again.

honestly missing someone...i dont care miss someone as friend or someone u care or u like to be with...for me everyone is special. really miss u.

thanks God i'm felt better now.... thanks very much.