There's always a smile on face but inside heart nobody knows

Friday, January 28, 2011

feeling not so comfortable

today is last day for working in jan 2011 b4 we celebrate chinese new year next week. i hav 1 week holiday. was nice to have long holiday right? at office everyone seems happy. me too. but suddenly i felt hurt...... i kept that feeling so long,since i'm kids until now. i wish i can change but its from god. at office some officemate always "repeat with annoying or teasing" what i said with more soft. arghhhh especially when i go to another department. so nowdays..i'm afraid to go that department because i dont want people say like that again n again. for me its just normal. arghh since i kid..i always feel shy when i wanna talk, practice to talk rough,...still remembre some people advise me to brush my toungue..make it rought....hahhahah funny. tried b4 but never changed ..i'm worry people will laugh to me. arghhhh sound is god's gift...... i accept it........anyway i'm happy with myself.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

the profile

today i just online at social networking. just to see around. although without any reason..its nice to see people with good photo, good looking, mature n also with nice scene in the photo. suddenly i was interested to see one look awesome...but when i checked a little bit the person just 23 year old, to compare with me i'm become 26 years old this year. it is suitable to say hello... finally i realize i getting old...i just think last night i was 20 year old......when i'm 20 years..i always wish i become 26 because people will not say i'm too young, but now when i'm become 26....i wish i can be 24 years old.hahahha

honestly when i'm 19 years old..i wish i will get my target is 24 years old, hav lover to share the rest of my life. but now when i'm 26 years old..i'm still single. i dont like be this.what to do ...thats life..sometime i wish i hav different journey to compare what i hav now. must really i appreciate what i have around me, friend, family and work....but having a special lover...sure its will be nice. lalalala

film at weekend

last week i dont hav much interesting thing to write here, except busy with work, not so well because at office everyone got flu and coughing, was hurt my brother's feeling, a bit frustrated with people around me. its not good to write here because i think i must see front.

so at weekend, was terrible for me because i lost feeling to eat, can't sleep, a bit flu and coughing. try to sleep 3 time..but got nightmare 3 time too.i was too worry about my life, my work, my family and so on.i try to fix with good, but sometime we just human..just can try n hope but sometime never belong to us.

then i borrow some dvd from john, try to make sleepy watching movie. started with the white ribbon. a Germany film 2009. i like the way the make film, black and white and i like the custom they wear, location and sure its nice. right now too many CGI 3d film...make us sick and we not learn many thing about life and humanity.

in this film...too many plot and sometime its very hard to remember the people because u need to understand the culture, the era even what the rule of their job for community. like what the pastor for villagers? even doctor, teacher, baron and so on. i'm quite confuse. i can say long time ago people really respect to father or pastor at church..same like at Malaysia..we respect Imam or religious person at mosque as community leader.

really like they way young couple fall in love n so traditional..even hav bad thing when the doctor rape some young girl at village n etc...but the things is we need take care our family 1st,save the children, involve our self to community and become a good person, lover, and nice person. i like the character of the teacher..those always helpful and never take advantage what he have.

then i continue 2nd movie the last station, kind of biography film....n i realy love it. the concept is freedom and love. when we love someone we will connect forever until last breathe. i fall in love with the concept of love a husband love his wife and how respect the wife to her husband although sometime she become crazy. yeah when we love someone....sometime we try to do best thing in our life. its called sharing. sharing of love, prblm, money, difficulty...then when we hav prblm..its good to remember our nice time to make sure the relationship is become tight again.wonderful. other things is how the virgin guy hav fun with his 1st love and he also use the concept freedom n love for his relationship.... how much love himself to his lover. wow.....the story like the ghost writer but still with their own objective.i like the scene..the clothes..i dont know i really like English style.....the house, the farm, the horse, the song, the train.....wonderful.
wish i can found another movie like this.

last thing i do today is watching prince of persia for 2nd time. i dont hav anything to do at home actually. thats why i choose this movie. borrowed dvd from patrice. its nice film...i love the city....its related what i'm doing last time..research about African architecture. i means they shots some scene at maghribi or Algeria i think or north africa. love the old city, wonderful, the caravan alley with market, custom, girl, man, soldier, all look sexy and hot.

finally, i hav good relax at weekend.still hav flu and cough...just finished do swim at swimming pool,stole some flower from house area, hehhe. jogging around house n do gym at gym room at club house. love make myself busy healthy and strong. hahha

Thursday, January 20, 2011

i love the memory

rest and relax at home for holiday.....from flu n cough.......just hav humanity moment with watching "dont send me to hell" drama last night and "funny people" film this morning...... both of good ...till i missed this song "memory" by barry manilow ...miss u all my best friend
dont want to explain much because nobody will read. so just to say nice to hav memory. its nice hav good friend to talk like in the film. yeah nice moment.

Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
It was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
And the new day will begin
Burnt out ends of smokey days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies
Another night is over
Another day is dawning
Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my day in the sun
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is
Look a new day has begun
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
It was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

a dream

A few week ago I had a dream, went one place with my family. The place far far away, “snakey” road, but with great view with shaded branch of tree, big lake besides road, bright and shiny sunlight. The road totally worst at all but still can go through. After few hour my family and I stop at one house to pray. The owner of the house really polite n humble, but in that house really nobody there…. Clean n so comfortable, not too much.

Waiting my family finish pray, I sit under tree behind the house, look around. so nice house and village..suddenly heard some people give greeting “salam” at main door, I realize the owner house’s daughter back from school. 4 girl of them. I saw them…. From far very polite, humble n cheeky smile at me, then they go to their room and after that go kitchen to see their mother to help make lunch. The way they speak with their mother really polite, never meet any girl in this world anymore.hardworking at kitchen, laughing, meal with great smell.

One of them come to me and talk to me. What u doing in this place? I told her I come to this place for big reason. Attend friend's engagement. Then she told me her father wanna talk to me at kitchen. The girl really nice, not beautiful but hav something inside her. Then I just go to kitchen to meet her father. Suddenly her father said….hi young man, can u become the husband for his daughter?. There is 4 girl sit on chair at kitchen. U can choose anyone u like even u can take all. i asking u because u look so nice person with big heart…. I was surprised…then woke up from sleep….. its just a dream…..

I realize a beautiful girl or women not only come from beautiful face…but its must from heart, attitude, respect the old people, talk nicely, cover their body, never complaint and the most important is never hurt their father n mother. I love the dream.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

research about uganda n africa architecture

today, my project team asked me to make research about uganda and kenya housing. i think our boss got project there. so we need to study the house concept and planning. hard to find because the infomation not like at malaysia.we produced many information at internet. so to relate house concept at uganda and kenya...we proceed to make research about african architecture. wow...i can say its great architecture, i love africa now. love the house there. some really good design. here some photo about nice. i'm sure in 20 will be big power soon as long as good governance and people need to be more study about advantage of african. if africa is bad place to stay, why colonial last time move to africa? something value there.

just dealing with air asia

today when i arrived at officemate asked me about can the air asia ticket replace by someone if that person got chicken pox and not available to travel? i said dont know.

then free check the air asia, i found that they do promotion for hari raya time...end of august until september. then i quickly asked my old friend to buy it with credit card. yeahh i got the ticket now.

if i take bus for 2 way, its cost me rm100 with 16 hour..maybe more. if i take flight 2 way, its took 2 hour with rm173....i think i choose the flight for this time. i dont know what happen to me until august 2011.hopefully i will be good. so glad because i got hari raya ticket. thanks air asia. now everyone can fly with air asia. its good. less tired and pressure.i fobia sometime in bus.....getting old.

Monday, January 17, 2011

took the frame

today was started with big smile..... i went to frame shop to take my painting. the owner was opened the frame....unbelievable its really nice. yeayyyy..i'm smiling nonstop. although its cost me rm300, but i think its ok...maybe after 5 year i can sell. hopefully not. arrived at home..time to put on wall.hmmm like art gallery..will do more. lucky bought something to hang frame on wall. john gave me instruction b4. was nice to see the house hav life. i can say...after 6 month stay in this house...i hav chemistry and not much complain anymore. love gardening, cooking, painting and all activity here

always wish my dream come true......

today on the way to office, i listening my favourite radio, hot fm. suddenly they play s club 7, old song with nice word. love to share here. ...always love to be with u


Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go


You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no


A part of me will always be with you...

nice word for today

Sometimes we never realized when we love someone, we realized that we already lose him/her

and sometimes we realized how we need someone to gives her/his love to us....spread the love

Friday, January 14, 2011

last day offer from apple store (malaysia)

my officemate offered a favour at office if anyone wanna buy apple product. honestly its good sale.. but out of budget for this month. check it out.just buy from online...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

endangered animal

leatherback sea turtle/ penyu belimbing

today my officemate asked me to help her kids for homework. just find some photo about endangered animal. i was excited to find it n like to share here. i was save in desktop and feel a waste if i'm not put in my blog.

here some photo about endangered animal. some animal really we forget but still alive. sure some people never know that.maybe time to go national zoo later..just at ampang......went there 2 year ago.

malayan tapir/ tapir

sumatra rhinoceros

asian arowana

orang utan

panda bear

sumatra tiger

mouse deer/kancil

borneo pygmy elephant

hmmm..another day in this week

a few days i'm not update or write any story here.. i was moody, fever, stress at office, flu n the time very tight to me.that's why i decided to not write here because my writing will sound crazy n annoying me.

finally today i feel i'm totally healthy after took medicine a few day, drink honey and warm water. its good. try to recover b4 my family come to kl tomorrow morning.

then, today i decided to bring 5 art work to frame it or make frame. with hope can get b4 my family come, but i need to take saturday or monday. a frame without border with glass, its cost me rm 20. another frame with border n glass,rm35. after bargain the price i got rm30.but i must send 10 art painting.

a bit confuse after make promised with the uncle at frame shop. should i frame all? or waiting another month..because its will cost me soon. still have another 8 painting... hmmm anyone to sponsor for frame?

finally i solve this prblm..was scared n worry if the framing very too expensive.