There's always a smile on face but inside heart nobody knows

Friday, April 30, 2010

the gateway



happy labour day to all my friend


just wanna wish to all my friend, or someone visit my blog, happy labour day. wish all of u become good workers n be great workers, be professionalism in work,life and contribute ur skill for ur own race, people, country, and world. enjoy ur weekend with our great day.

latest work


before (shop lot)


after (shop lot)

before (covered pedestrian/ boulevard)

after (covered pedestrian/ boulevard)

yesterday, one of my friend showed me one of our stuff work in blog. its like ok because thier work at office. thats why i put some my work here too. just to show i'm doing in my work. i know some people say i'm not good enough for 3d....i accepted it...nobody is perfect. n i know my position, n i will learn more n more. thanks for the honest comment. but i'm enjoyed with my design.

impossible

for those people took train everyday, they will understand what i'm wrote here. kind of life feeling. thats make all of us strong, confident n appreciate our life. sometime its help us to more down to earth, not expecting too much in our life, but nothing impossible. for example..when i feel down at night, n wake up n go office by train, u will see many kind of people, poor people..which is not lucky like me. then i feel better. honestly the god gave me a feeling to investigate people.

for example..i can reconigze some race from the skin patent, even hair, eyes and so on.when u look pakistani workers in train, u can see thier hand very rough because too much hard work, sometime smell body, with uncut mustache, beard, hair.... also with indonesia workers. especially girl, they try hard in fashion. some people look tired, some people laughing with phone. some people enjoy with song in phone. many many thing attitude in train. chinese, indian, white, malay, scarf or unscarf, sexy, ugly, handsome, beautiful, pregnant, gay, biseksual, lesbian, straight. all kind thing in train. sometime saw sexual harassment....hmm kind of rude thing.

i swear sometime i saw people cry because fight with lover because i saw in thier sms.i swear sometime i busy body n read thier sms in train because i'm taller. pity of them because thier lover not loyal with them. sometime try tackle friend for dinner, hubby word, love word, some talking with family in train. some foreigner kissing, hugging in train,. some middle eat family n train full goods. yeah all about life.

thats why i said, in our life its nothing impossible. outside many poor people and unlucky from us. thats make me strong sometime. i always wish i hav better life and better work. lovely word with lovely person.



impossible- kelly clarkson

Just woke up and thought I'd try
Try to step across the line
You know that I've been thinking 'bout it for a while
Yeah
Starting to think it's time I leave
Does me good to know I finally feel
Feel this pain, it's real, it's possible

(You say)
Can't change the winds, you say
Won't matter anyway
Can't reach that far
Cause it's impossible (it's impossible)
Can't rise above this place
Won't change your mind, so I pray
Breaking down the walls to the impossible (it's impossible)

Walking by myself I know
This lonely road's becoming my new home
But I don't stop
I just keep moving on, and on
Ain't no need to dry my eyes
I haven't cried in quite some time
Everyday I fight it,
You know it's possible

(You say)
Can't change the winds, you say
Won't matter anyway
Can't reach that far
Cause it's impossible (it's impossible)
Can't rise above this place
Won't change your mind, so I pray
Breaking down the walls to the impossible (it's impossible)

Someone tell me why
It's so hard taking chances
You draw the line and think that
I won't ask for more
Yeah
I will stumble and I'll make my own mistakes
Yeah
But I won't worry about it anymore
It's impossible

(You say)
Can't change the winds, you say
Won't matter anyway
Can't reach that far
Cause it's impossible (it's impossible)
Can't rise above this place
Won't change your mind, so I pray
Breaking down the walls to the impossible (it's impossible)

It's impossible to you
Not impossible for me
Not impossible for me

Can't rise above this place (impossible to you)
Won't change enough, so I pray (not impossible for me)
Breaking down the walls to the impossible (not impossible for me)
(it's impossible)

Just woke up and thought I'd try
Try to step across the line


"the past day is the great lesson for us to be strong for the next day"

Professionalism in life

Yesterday it is was bad day to me. Not worst but something make me more be careful n strong. Since morning, my officemate in design team moody like sour, because we late get salary for this month. Some people wanna go to see cinema, concert, car payment, house and etc. its effect me too. Everyone just not happy. Me? I’m not happy too, but lucky I got some help from my sister n my friend..

At same time, our boss again n again give a lot of work, they want quantity rather than quality. I just follow the wave, although I’m tired but I try to no step behind, or get angry when got new job. My architect at office, always get mad when we got new job. I know he design many thing but he wrong..he not give us chance to design. All project want belongs to him, when got too much project, seems like blame us because he did many work. Last time when we give idea n design, rejected without give chance. So I ‘m not involve any party, I working with my work n so on. Everyday is like submission day, we always rushing design, make 3d, colour the plan, rendering , presentation and so on. Always crazy in design team, also with draughtmant team..they hav a lot of drawing n detail to finish. Admin also busy make the minute for meeting everyday, answer the phone, filing and so on. But when talking about accountant at office….she r crazy. Always pay late for our salary. I can say she r stupid……. For me, our salary is same all month, unless add overtime. But she not realize, how to manage it. Some people said she come at Saturday n Sunday to work, but what she doing? Counting money one by one in her room?arghh. its about professionalism in life. If people not discipline for their life..they goes nothing. At least felt guilty, shy because work slow, not good organize and so on.

At same day I have date with a friend. Since morning, I count the hour n minute because I want date. Talking with someone I like, being friend, find friend or do other activity. I already felt hard because can’t wait to go home n do my stuff, something different with my work time. Yeah we supposed meet around 630pm, but when I arrived at home I got message, our date was delay until 930pm. I was waiting another hour 1030pm, still no answer. After I sent a provoke message, finally at 11pm I got reply..just sorry message. That’s really disappointed me. Why not people r professionalism in their life? If u promise to meet, or make a date at that time, pls make sure its happen or other word..be honest in every part. If u r late… or wanna cancel it..just say it. I was waste time for a few hour at home for something not happen. No professional in life too. I swear I’m frustrated, dispointed, broken heart because I’m not easily to go out without big reason. I know I’m doing too much, but in this life..we must doing double effort to get what we want. I’m too young n still not mature enough. Finally I sleep, wake up at morning…. Finally I realize, this is a lesson to me. Another crazy thing in my life, n I just smile for myself. Funny because I put my feeling at front rather than myself. I want great FUN. Hahhaa

On the way to office, I’m smiling all the time, because yesterday likes a dream day. All crazy happen and today I saw one of my officemate hav bad eyes because cried, like night. I think not only me, like to cry....also others. She cried because her cat lost at home. She love the kitten. So pity. Until now she not find the cat. Yeah we love pet, we love our lovers. We love someone or something close to us. Someone can talk, can touch, can feel the feeling, something can make u laughing, make, joke, touch and so on. A few officemate try helping her to be calm down, but she cry. Sound funny, but that reality. Although she is 25 years old same like me…….. but we will cry when we lost someone or something we love. We r desperate to get love.lol

Thanks to everyone make me happy today, helping me out from bad zone. Yeah feel much better today

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

another love story

Last weekend, it was great time I hav in this month. I canceled my driving class just because to make me happy and forget all my prblm. last month i used all my weekend for the driving class, its good for me to take rest from that. Its important because I don’t want stay in pressure or effect my working life. Luckily I went to cinema to watch movie with friend, clash of titans and kick ass. The both of movie are really good, especially kick ass. So funny n simple movie.

last weekend, i also have talk with my new friend in kl, one american. but its was not nice conversation. n i fell not click at all. sometime we dont know the cloudy cloud come again, then i start felt bad. although i never do that, but he say...malaysian people getting close with foreigner just because for money, food n etc. i'm a bit shocked. here i wanna say if i take advantage from all my foreigner's friend, i really sorry. although i never do that.unless, its was early discussion for some reason.

until now i felt guilty, dont know why. some people i already asked forgiveness if i did, another friend..i will do soon, because i need right time to talk.try to hide it..but its better for me to write here, what i'm feeling.

then yesterday... i was talked with 2 old friend...which is very meant to me,for a few year ago. my tears start moving, because remember that memory.although its very short, but only me know how much i'm happy that time. but the truth is i was rejected. something i always put in my mind, dont ever close with someone. finally i lost focus, since last week, i fighting myself to get happiness, fun...but still not satisfy me.its hard time. try be positive as i can. Ariff boleh!!!!

hmmm... so empty..... always try be strong, be mature....but as human we always down again n again. maybe i tried hard.....anyways hope tomorrow... i feel better and the cloud move.

mandy-westlife

I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy

[Chorus:]
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy

[Chorus]

Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy

[Chorus]

You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...

Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Monday, April 26, 2010

a nice word to explain

"love takes time, yes, but the question is: are you attracted to me and me to you? After you meet me.. do you think about me a lot? Do you miss me? When you wake up in the morning do you feel the uncontrollable urge to sms or speak to me on the phone? Do you go out of your way to see me at least a few times a week or sleepover.. not just weekends." These are all indicators that someone really likes you, wants you (and loves you).

maybe at others word

"He is the right person for you if he is the person on your mind the very first thing when you wakes up in the morning and the last person on your mind before you go to sleep."