Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Everyday I must wake up early and finish work almost at 7 or 9pm. making preparation for sister wedding and so on. Maybe some people think I will happy here, not at all. I always think positive and learn from what I done at hometown. My mind fly around thinking to everyone I loved, I miss and sometime I cry at corner alone because I cant do anything to say how much I want all of u. some people make me frustrated, some people make disappointed, some people make me proud, almost make me like a ghost.
I’m lucky because have niece, they will come to my house meet their grand father n mother at weekend. Shami n shasha. They like ride electric motorcycle bought by my father. Their attitude or habit makes me smile n laugh sometime. Sometime make me mad too. Last weekend, shasha ride motorcycle n her brother at behind. I can say both of them really genius n intelligent because they can use electric motorcycle with good. My father teaches them only once, but they can use it with good, with all button. Shami only 3 years old and shasha 2 year old. Funny is shasha fight with her brother because she want ride the motorcycle until she slept on motorcycle. Lol . hahaha. Her brother mad with her, but she still not allow her brother take over the motorcycle until their mother come n mad them. Heheh. So stubborn.
Lucky too my young brother back home for 5 day. At least help at construction site to renovate house. but sometime happen, I will never tell here, those people know about that, I hope understand my situation. So tired with work at home. i only can dream what I want at night. Many thing I want write here but…I really frustrated. Let it go anyways…..these life make me more stress, burden inside n hurt. I always say I need someone…….i’m sad actually for many thing. Many question to ask, many story to share…I’m sad at all.
Just feel lonely, its hard decision, hard decision, hard decision to move to hometown. Why? Only I know that’s reason. I’m tired with all stuff, some still at KL, but I don’t know, when I will pick that thing again. I’m give up and frustrated. Almost down, and I know if i’m stay at hometown, I will suffer all my life. To ignore that thinking, I dream and wish can go to beach, island or Kenyir Lake with my father and family. Its hard to go now..but its just hope.
Since morning I woke up, I got some sms, after they know my decision. I’m happy because some my lovely friend with me until now, give me support, advice and so on. And I’m sad too because some people put distance from me, maybe I’m not important for them anymore. Yeah, that’s life. When u happy and people around u, asked ur help, using u, even more than that. But when u lost for a while in your life, people will ignore u, even never contact u anymore.
Yeah a little bit upset, just packing stuff and sometime my eyes look at computer monitor hope special person will online. Nothing at all. In process packing stuff in box, I found 2 necklaces from someone from Malaysia and Morocco. It’s nice, and honestly I rarely wear it. i respect my housemate because they don’t like I’m wearing that, and I also shy to wear it. But I wear it sometime. Just record that memory in blog. Thanks for the gift, its nice n lovely.
Finally, my special person online, I hope can talk longer, but make me frustrated. Nothing to say, because now I’m at hometown already no time anymore to talk even chat. Huh. its makes me mad. No word to say actually. like I said b4, sometime have something we can’t explain, something hard explanation, because people think its not important for them, because they have their own life.
Those people sacrificed their time with me b4, I really appreciate it. i miss all of u.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
many people say like that, n now suddenly i heard a thunder from sky n a little rain in kl. wow amazing. maybe they sad, i'm leaving tonight. u can see the water on floor n roof from the photo. i need to learn how to catch rain next time by camera. hehehetime to go. see u next time.